already 22. should be matured enough to make decision. oh yeah. matured in that sense. but still im forever their baby girl. so need not to be matured with my personality. kihkih. a bunch of thanks to everyone that wishes me despite via phone calls, text messages, fb posts, fb inbox, whatsapp, twitter and even birthday cards. appreciate them all.

mummy already asking for a grandchild. oh my. she's really making me nervous much. mummy, i dont even have a crush at this moment, i wont be this time around la. u have to wait for the right time to come. oh hey mr. right. where are you? my mum has officially asking bout ur presence. pls answer it on my behalf. hahahaha crap !!

my wish? hope for something miracle :) till here

ok fine. maybe i watched too much of hong kong drama. but i just felt like i missed something in my life. there's always an empty space which makes me feel ............. "empty?" yes !! --" i dont know. being alone looks cool. looks independent. looks free. but hey. it sucks. sometimes sometimes u just feel like talking to someone. telling them what u had done today even here's nothing interesting.

to know that there's actually someone out there that cares about u. thinks about u. really makes ur day better. brighter. :')

ku lepaskan kau jauh, jauh dari ku~ kerna ku tahu dirimu bukan untuk ku~ maafkan aku terpaksa aku melupakan kamu~ lepaskan semua kisah kita yang lamaaaa~

this song has been accompany me throughout my nights. thanks joker crew production. nice song :')

respect is something u gain. nice one !! totally agree.

out of sudden and yeah its still there. emo songs will be accompany me tonight. hell yeah~

i just love the sound of silence. so i prefer to just wish among the silence. have a blessed month friend. 

#too young too dumb to realize 

as long as there is a way. we'll surely walk through it although it demands tons of effort. we'll go through it together. and do it our way. our own way. that's family. "stay strong*

i'm officially done trying. if you want me in your life you can come find me. until then just continue treating me like i dont exist.

hidup ini penuh dengan pelawak yang menjengkelkan. mungkin. kadang kadang. entah. lawak lawak. lantak. yang penting esok balek esok pulang. sila say bye to this crazy place im sick of this sem all so damn hectic and tiring sem only GOD knows how sick i am with what ive gone through a sincere thanks and a deepest farewell from a stupid me. bye. owh ini malam penuh dengan emosi yang bercapuran maka please abaikan my ayat yang crazy plus bodoh itu. oh ya saya bodoh. sekian.

the word of the day.. huh? day? night kot.. ok the word for tonight.. MALAS !! errrrr... is that the only word in this universe? Nope !! there's another one.. LAZY !! err ok.. so??? emmmmmmmmm.... lazy to continue typing this entry............ is that ok? oppss.. forgte.. u are too lazy to do the thinking.. so... Good Night Mr Lazy !!!! Good Luck for the last two paper !!!

i'm already into the character hahaha 

listening to all Whitney's songs makes me feels like........

HOME !! :')

Happy Teacher's Day

thanks mummy for being my teacher ever since i came into this world.. u lighten up my life every now and then.. thanks for the patience and of course the non-stop guidance till i had become what i want to be.. i realize being a teacher is no an easy job.. it needs passion and and surely patience to faced every situation in school.. but u still manage to create that smile on ur face every day after school even u are tired just to listen to our children story in school.. thanks mummy thanks for everything.. i love u.. i miss u :)

And for every single teacher that had taught me starting from my kindergarten until now in campus.. lots of appreciation i gave to all of u.. cz without u guys.. im just an empty bottle seeking for knowledge in the middle of no where.. thanks for all the knowledge.. and sorry if i sometimes dozed off in class.. not because of  the boring subject or the way u guys teach.. its just because im being lazy and sleepy during that moment.. hehehehe

Not to forget to all teachers-to-be.. lets improve ourselves bit by bit.. day by day.. to be come a better teacher.. never try to be the best.. cz its always just enough to be a better u.. u know ur own strength.. all the best in teaching :))

please be considerate dear.. yes she sometimes nag.. not sometimes actually.. most of the time i guess.. but its all for us.. she loves us.. she wants the best for us.. although she is repeating the same thing over and over again just bare it for that few hours.. no harm listen right.. why the long face? why the rude reply? why the pointless fight? no motive dear.. just a waste of time..

ego wont bring u far dear.. it will just bring u down.. mistakes? yes !! people does lots and lots of mistakes.. but the good thing of these mistakes is we learn from them.. u make mistakes.. u realize it.. then u do it again.. pointless dear.. learn from it.. improve urself.. u should be better than me.. cz u are always the best among the 3 of us.. but why this sudden conflict?  seriously have no comment on u.. u are too ego.. all u have in mind is that everything u do will turns out right but actually its not and u dare not to admit it.. pls girl pls.. u need to grow up.. 18.. u should be independent by now.. until when u want me to always back u up unnecessarily? if its just the sake of stopping her from nagging i dont mind.. but when she have the point.. i have to agree.. i have to wake u up from ur childhood.. its no more happy ever after life.. u have to face ur own challenge.. ur own war.. cz its ur responsibility.. not us.. we can just support u from a distance.. cz the road is all urs now..

freedom.. that's what u want from the start right.. and now.. u are holding back.. not wanting to run freely.. why?? haih.............. no comment on u laa dear.. whenever i called.. u picked up ur phone with ur lazy tone.. it makes me tired to have a serious talk with u.. cz u will definitely feel bored and sick of hearing it over and over again.. but still same.. u never change.. how do u expect me to sit back and watch the same u doing same mistakes over and over again? grow up girl.. grow up.. and seriously i love u.... so much.... we love u.... so pls... love urself..

gosh its a great movie

HANDSOME !!! its a MUST for u to watch it !!

#enjoy #study #week #hahahaha

done with Glee !! 1 thing that i learned.. let go !! let go on what u love.. on what u care for.. and go for the reality.. the one u are sure of.. as for the rest? if it's belongs to u it's urs.. :)) night peeps.. thanks Glee..

im surrounded by fakers.. yes !! fake person.. owh yes !! including me !! im fake.. haha and that's the right thing to do.. why?? cz im surrounded with people who like to mind others business.. like to spread words about others.. so the only thing to do is avoid them.. isolate myself.. and when they realize my changes.. i'll be like.. i'm fine.. just awake.. sleepy.. no mood.. or even just a smile will shut them up.. :))

being fake is necessary and compulsory in real life !!

u even fake a smile in front of the mirror just to please urself.. so just imagine.. in order to please the others...... its tiring.. but it helps a lot.. i love faking myself up.. harharhar

Him :)

The most mischievous kid in class.. I punish him once and he start to behave even worst after that.. attention seeker betol laa kamu ni aiman !! always get on my nerves.. and he knows that i'm always angry at him.. 

But... he's the one who react differently when i said that it is my last class with them..  When i asked the class to keep quiet.. he will be the one repeating that to his friends.. Always peeping through the stuff room after that.. during recess.. after every class.. even after school.. "Nanti sape nak ajar aiman tulis cantik2 lepas ni?? Teacher datang laa hari isnin tengok kitorang.." Gosh.. i really hold my tears when talking to him.. 

Received 3 "love" letter from him during the last day.. Kinda touch.. cz he's a remedial student.. very poor in his writing.. and yet.. he manage to write "ten kiu miss wee" 

Aiman.. teacher will not be around starting this monday.. and i really hope that you will be a good boy after this.. no more naughty2 in class k.. Really hope that u manage to improve yourself.. :')

#It feels great to be a teacher.. Thanks God.. for giving me this opportunity..

and that person is you.. thanks dear friend.. miss u :')

it's not the broken dreams that break us.. it's the dreams that we dare not to dream..

 - dream big.. someday it will turn to reality.. it just need some time.. and of course.. some effort -

suddenly feel like walking and playing under the heavy downpour just now.. so i just follow my instinct.. after that feeling quiet melancholic when the rain touches my skin.. i miss her.. miss arguing with her.. miss laughing with her.. miss being crazy with her.. miss out night talks.. miss our movie marathons.. hmm.. she started receiving interviews from all kinds of scholarships lately.. meaning she will be away for her studies later.. who will be welcoming me with the "cool" expression when im back for my sem break? who will be asking me silly questions out of sudden? who will be tickling me when i wake up late after this? WeeViiVian !!!! u are much more independent than me.. i know that.. just kinda worry for u cz u are not matured enough.. especially in ur friendship.. hope u'll be a better u from time to time.. i wanna be back for u !!!!! cz i suddenly realize that i tend to over looked ur problems recently by expecting that u can handle it urself.. just be urself k.. stay cool (as usual..) things happened to make u realize they are ur pals or merely JUST friends..

#be back for u dont worry !!

HANDSOME !!!

hey there . . . not feeling well huh? take good care of urself k !! make sure that u dont skip ur meal.. and drink plenty of plain water k . . . errr.. i guess u know how to take care of urself rite.. so i better stop mumbling or else it will sound like a grandmother.. no way !! im not that old !!!! oke.. stop with the crap !! TAKE CARE REST WELL !! :)

the number 6 is specially for u Miss WeeWinNie !! 

STOP THINKING TOO MUCH !! --"

because when u think less.. u'll surely smile through ur day.. a sincere smile :')

a sudden feeling of guiltiness.. dude.. sorry if i made u feel uncomfortable.. i'll only appear when im in the mids of probs but u are always there.. sorry if i've hurt ur feelings.. didn't mean to..

i miss being with u.. i miss our talk.. i miss laughing with u.. shortly.. i miss you !!

lazy !!! crazy !!!

im starting getting lazy now !! the moment i start open my rph book i started yawing.. gosh !! its not even 12 yet.. its not sleepy !! its called lazy !! read my lips !! LAZY !!! huhuhu.. gosh winnie pls dont start that.. stay focus !! pls !!!!! 2 more week.. just 2.. one.. two.. not more than that.. mr lazy.. im begging u.. pls dont knock on my door.. pls dont.. dont even pass by my mind.. cz u will definitely persuade me to follow ur flow.. pls pls pls... or else i'll kill u !!!!!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

#huhuhuhu... need my mood !!!!!

HANDSOME !!!

have a sudden feeling to post an entry for this person .. hey handsome !! can i be honest with u .. im missing u badly laa hahahaha .. oke .. kinda awkward right lalalallala .. just abaikan my statement k !!

hey !! we have 2 more weeks to go !! better do ur very best for the last observation !! be the CUTEST teacher in the world.. eh no.. in the universe.. and even the galaxy !! hahahhaa.. 

nothing much actually.. so i'll stop here then.. finish up ur work and SLEEP !! rest well !! night.. bye !! 

#better appreciate bcz this is my first entry ONLY about u !! stay tune for more hahahahha 

last night.. i had this dream.. and i was like "damn!!" pls dont wake me up.. its the best dream ever !! dude... i hope everything is going all right on you.. just remember whenever you need a friend you have me..

#kinda disappointed.. but its ok.. used to it.. he have his own reason.. adios !!

practicum

thank God for providing some space for me to breath.. fuuuhhhhh.. hectic week.. hectic days !! who said that its easy to be a teacher? damn tiring u know !! its ok to be physically tired, i used to it.. cz after a long nap it will definitely gain back my energy. but when u get mentally burden with all kinds of plans and activities in your head.. sleeping is absolutely NOT the best solution.. it may haunt u in your dreams.. trust me !! i experienced that !! huhuhu

nothing much to tell..i've already wrote everything in my rph reflection.. and i simply dont want to repeat the same thing over and over again.. its just a waste of time.. n totally crazy.. but what i realize.. its fun to be a teacher.. u will eventually meet some kids that reflects yourself.. it really brings back that memories.. :)

gotta go !! cant hold my eyes open.. adios !! 

tension for almost 2 hours !!!!!! grrrrrr... fine.. get over it !!!

dear crush.. the moment we start talking.. was the start of something beautiful.. the silent war that we had.. the time that we spent.. the road we've been through.. definitely was my greatest memories.. thanks thanks and thanks.. i'll be away for 1 month.. and i hope u will understand.. i need to be focused.. im done playing around with my feelings.. its sucks..

to the HANDSOME one !!! good luck praktikum !!!

to the one and only who ALWAYS view my blog !!! thanks !!! proud to have a TALENTED person like u viewing my blog.. SERIOUSLY !! im PROUD and i mean it !! hahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahha XD

ok.. im here.. in my campus.. this moment.. and its a god damn hot night !! like seriously.. messy room.. unpacked stuff.. gosh !! like hell.. someone pls help me clear all this stuff up !!!

*left this entry hanging for almost 1 hour just now.. on-call with my so-called best friend a.k.a miszannalieze*

ok.. lets continue.. ok. haven't unpack.. plus on with the multitasking me busying with this entry.. plus text messages.. plus whatsapp-ing.. plus fb comment.. plus fb chat.. plus eating.. plus listening to my favorite song.. really messy me !! but i love my style.. hahaha.. ok crap ! that's what i always do !!

hey you !! the HANDSOME and TALENTED one !! hahahahhahha... finish up your assignments k !! fighting !!

8feb-17feb - CNY !!! ^_^

20feb - kem musical

22feb - merentas desa

25feb - BIG

1mac-3mac - betau

4mac - LGA staging

11mac-14mac - olahraga

1april - praktikum

oke... that is roughly a draft of my crazy timetable for the past few months.. it is listed on the 23rd january 2013.. 09.01am.. and turns out that i've finally come to the last bit of it.. and that's my PRAKTIKUM session !!!! gosh gosh gosh.. i can feel butterflies in my tummy now !!! waaaaa... nervous babe !!! huhuhu.. wonder how will it be on the first day.. during the observation.. don't dare to imagine it... huhuhu

oke winnie.. relax winnie.. think positive and everything will be fine.. :) *deep breath* oke.. im relax now.. going back there on friday?? hahahaha.. its not a joke ok.. im serious.. oke --' mindset !! where the hell are you now?? many things can be done ok.. you can make your full preparation for your schooling.. settle up your assignments quick.. need not be worried by rushing here and there on the monday.. ok !! let head back there now !!!!!! opppsss..over-reacted.. hahaha.. 

till now.. still cant believe that im already in sem5 this year.. its all happen too fast.. 1 and a half years to go.. fuuhhhh.. hope everything will be fine for the next 3 sem.. :)

currently sitting in front of my desktop finishing my assignments.. what?? still with the assignments?? yeah... well i think i should thank those who are willing to faced the lecturers and postpone the due date.. or else we will all surely be like zombies on the last friday.. ahahha.. also.. being home alone for the second day.. what to do.. didnt have the urge to go out wondering around.. my brother is out of town busying with this schedule of squashy tournament.. didnt even have the change to spend time with him during this break.. all the best kiddo.. its ur last year in primary.. break a leg k !! :) my sister is busy with all her applications.. meeting the teachers.. asking around for scholarships.. blablabla.. normal.. i've been there.. mummy?? focusing on viivian's stuff... :) she should be... daddy?? as usual.. busy with his work.. no holiday expect fridays.... which lives me alone here.. right now.. this moment..

hmm... wonder what is going on in riau this time.. saw everything that they posted on FB.. quiet smooth so far.. hope that the they manage to adapt with the lighting and the audio system over there.. rehearse as much as u guys can.. adapt urself with the stage over there.. and perform well tonight !! always with u guys.. :))

having a little conflict with myself lately.. Crush.. it helps to motivate urself.. to be better.. day by day.. in order for him to have a good impression on you.. but the fact is that he dont even realize ur existence.. and that hurts... a lot !!! so now.. i tell myself.. be cool.. limit yourself.. he's not yours.. and will never be.. so just act normal.. remain the friendship.. rather than turning into strangers.. cz that will hurt u even more !! conclusion??  let it just remain what we have now.. not more.. not less.. trying to ignore what is in my mind now.. and focus on something more important.. live life to the fullest !! :)

#dream on.. it wont happen.. never..

last

tonight is the last night im with them.. feel kinda sad though.. why not.. even they often get me on my nerves but still that's the memories between us.. the tears the laughter the talk the jokes.. that's priceless.. my friends asked me.. what u get from spending all night with them? dont you feel tired doing things that didnt bring any benifit to u? well.. i just manage to answer them with a smile:)) no doubt.. they are the reasons of my tense and stress.. but what i get from them is an opprtunity.. an opportunity for me to find the real me.. the opprtunity for me to create the other me.. the opportunity for me to become a new me.. i often think that i cant manage to handle all these bullshits before.. but now its all done !! small matter.. problems arise with the solutions behind.. it just the matter of finding the right one and solve it together.. that's what i get from spending all night with them.. :)) tired?? benifit?? one thing for sure.. i wont feel tired in doing things that i love.. oh yeah.. directing is just so not my type but theater.. its always a part of me ever since.. and i will put my 100% into it.. even its acting.. assisting.. directing.. or even just helping.. and since i still manage to complete my assignment on time even im in the mids of handling them.. i can just conclude that.. seriously.... i have a GOOD time management.. thats the benifit that i get !!! i found out my own strength... hehehehe.. ;)

guys... appreciate the road that you guys had been throuigh..make it worth it.. pay back all the hard work that you guys had gone through all these while.. its not hard being the best.. trust me.. i cant say much just now cause i know my limit.. u might be seeing me in tears then.. and i dont want that.. u guys have had enough from me.. and the only thing i want you guys to know is that i really appreciate each and every moment we spent together.. thanks for the cooperation that u guys had given me.. thanks a lot.. glad to be working with u guys.. :') i just hope that ayie can manage u guys well in riau.. give him ur fullest cooperation and make it a history.. u only have a chance to live once in life.. so make it great !! :))

nothing mush i guess.. didnt have the real time to continue emo-ing thinking about u guys.. assignments are still hangging half way.. shouting my name.. force me to finish it by today.. so i guess i'll just pen-off here.. ONE FOR ALL AND ALL FOR ONE !!! best of luck PRECAELS !! :D

#special thanks to kak ita for puting the trust in me.. appreciate that so much sis :)

From the bottom of my heart

This entry is decicated specially to my one and only.. Mummy.. Im really truly sorry mom.. I should have realize your good intention for me.. you always think for me but eventually i over-looked it.. I just brust it out to you without thinking about your feelings.. But still.. you just remain patience and forgive whatever happens.. I didn't even say "bye" before hangging up.. That's so rude of me.. Seriously I'm truly SORRY for what had happen.. I'm still acting childish after some times.. I dont know.. Maybe its because of my tense over here that makes me brust it out on you.. It shouldnt be that way !!! I should have to manage my feelings well.. Especially to you...

Mummy.. Im actually facing lots of problems over here.. and I have no one to share with.. I really wish that I can share it with you.. Just that I didnt manage to find the right time.. When we talk..it seems that all those problems just fly away from my mind.. I feel a sense of relief when talking to you.. Which makes me not to bring up any issues in my mind.. I just wanna remain that way.. The sense of relief when im with you.. I love you mom... Seriously.. I seldom say that to you lately.. I realize that.. But thats the fact..

I love you.. Im sorry.. Thank you.. These three phrases that you thought me since im young.. It will always be my magic words throughout my life time.. :)

Mummy.. I really really miss you NOW.... Just feel like hugging you and never let go.... Miss you mom.. SERIOUSLY !!!! :'(

#free free kene chop sombong tadi.. padan muke ko winnie.. tulaa lain kali senyum.. berusaha untuk fake-kan diri !!!!

Thanks

First of all.. Thanks Anis for lending me her lappy for A WHILE... #a while only oke winnie.. so u better be quick !! Haha.. ok ok !! Thanks again.. Love you Anis.. :)

Its been a hectic semester for me.. starting from the day i accept the challenge to lead my group of junior with their theater "Sleeping Beauty and the Beast". Sincerely.. i didn't have the guts to say NO cause they really need someone to help them around.. And to me, this maybe would be the right time i start to try out something new.. something that i've never done before.. "Directing"

Things get worse.. Problems occur.. Tense and stress often accompany me in my sleep.. Woke up the next day feeling fresh for just A WHILE and then start on with those problems again.. My senior once told me.. Don't take it as a problem.. but face it as a challenge.. Ok fine.. That's my choice so that's my challenge . for me to be stronger.. for me to be wiser.. and YES !! I am now.. #I suppose.. Hehehe..

Also thanks to him.. who is willing to hear all my problems from the start.. I owe you A LOT dude.. Thanks.. Thanks.. and Thanks.. He's the one who make me feel a lot better when i'm in the mid's of problems.. He's the one who gives me solutions to face it.. Arrrgghhh.. I don't know how to pay it other then thousands and millions of THANK YOU..........

To "Him".. pls don't have any awkward feelings if im willing to do anything for you.. pls don't make it as a big deal.. Cause you have done your part as a friends by helping me out.. and it's my time to repay you back by doing my part as a friend.. in helping you out.. in any situations.. Cause that's what friends are for..

Hope that everything will go according to my plan.. and also hope that THEY will give their full cooperation until the end !! Go PRECAELS !! You guys can do it !! :)

Thanks sis for putting the trust on me.. I appreciate it I really do.. But I really felt a whole lot of burden right now.. Thinking back every word that u said.. U open a chance for me to challenge myself.. I accept that challenge.. And now I start doubting my ability.. I didn't do this before.. Never.. I don't know how to start.. Yes, I have my friends.. I have them around.. But... I don't know.. Its me.. Me myself.. I didn't have THAT talent of leading people.. U want me to try.. Yes I can.. But even I haven't start trying, I keep on thinking on the consequences.. What if I fail to do it.. What if things get worse.. What if I didn't manage to get everything settle?? I just want to be who I really am now.. I don't even give a damn if they have their own probs.. But with THIS task.. I gotta know everyone's problem.. I gotta find out.. I got keeps gotta solve for them.. And sincerely I hate doing that.. And I don't know whether I can go through this or not.. 

If keeps playing in my mind right now.. What is the first thing I'm gonna tell them on Sunday.. Its a Sunday stuff and I'm thinking it RIGHT NOW !!! Get my point??? Its just so NOT ME !!!!! And being the lead to the both of them.. I feel myself like a peanut.. Nothing !! Both of them are much better then me.. I don't think I can get things right.. Like seriously !!! Gosh Winnie.. What are you thinking when u make your decision just now?? Just to make them satisfied? And abandon your own feelings? Gosh !! I really screw everything up !!

Ok fine.. Things happened.. Decision has been made.. Just go on with the flow.. Get things right.. Prove that you can.. That's the only way now.. No turning back.. No regrets.. 

#Wish that someone is here for me NOW~

Friends are merely just friends. Full-stop. Nothing more. Never will.

Chill dude.. Things happen for reasons..

The Snaky Year~

1st of all.. Thanks dad for paying my broadband bill.. Hihi..
2nd of all.. Good day to all.. Pls seat bck and enjoy my CNY entry.... :)

Yes indeed.. Im enjoying my every second at home for the pass one week.. Its heaven !!!!!!
The moment I reach home.. Its already late.. Nothing to talk about cause im already in my dream by 10...
The next day.. New Year Eve.. as usual.. Yearly routine.. Praying occasion.. After settle everything we went for our hair cut.. Just merely trimming my hair.. Make no big difference.. hahahha...

Waiting is kinda boring so.. this is what we do.......

Head back home to prepare for our reunion dinner.. Nothing special.. Just a few normal dishes.. But its great to have everyone sitting together enjoying the meal.. I love them.. And I really miss all of them NOW.... :')

Its us on the New Year Eve...:)

1st day of CNY !!!! The day every kiddos in the family will be waiting for.... excluding me pls.. Im too 'matured' to be called a kiddo.. kah3 ;p Well.. our tradition...

Ang-pows from our parents 1st.. Its a MUST !! >.<

Next... of course laa snap-snap-snap !!!! Hihihi

Gong Xi Fa Chai...:)

Her 1st day pose.. Kawaii~

He's doing that just because I asked him to.. Haha~

The best thing on the 1st day is ang-pow collections.. hahahhaha... The rest? so-so only lorh....

Nothing special for this year.. just like the year before.. spending time a my granny's.. pillow talk with cousins.. 2 words to describe -- As Usual~

2nd day.. 

Let me refresh back.. Hmmmm.. Oh of course.. Receive a bunch of visitors.. Welcome2.. Lets snap-snap-snap~ ;p

And this.. My cousin.. And we have a great combination !! :D

Those are all of my family members from my father's side.. Kinda large number of them.. But not that close.. Hee~ Its ok.. New Year is the time to meet up.. Know each other better.. Love you guys~ 

P/S :: They spend their whole day at my house that day.. 

3rd day !!!

Going crazy with her !! ;p

Going emo ALONE !! Ahahahha~

4th day !!

Emmm.... Nothing much~

5th day !!

We're all in BLACK !! 

#We didn't plan on that k~

On the 5th day.. we're having an open house at my grandmother's place.. A bunch of kids with their crazy acts.. A bunch of teenagers with their silly talks.. Also a bunch of adults with their hilarious jokes !!

Im kinda close with my cousins from my mother's side.. their age gap is quiet close to me.. #Hehehe.. This two pictures really reminds me of everything on that day.. P/S :: Keep the laughter.. Forget the tears~ :')

Photography session is a MUST in our family~ :D

6th day?? Visiting my friends.. Pictures?? In my memories.. Hahahaha.. Kinda rushing actually on that day.. so didn't even manage to take a pic.. Btw.. Happy CNY friends !! :)

7th day.. Mom and Dad starts working.. Me?? Spending my whole day with the two of them.. 

And here we go.................

Seldom bringing both of them out TOGETHER.. Its either with him or her.. We kinda like SHOULD go out quiet often.. Being crazy together.. Cause that's what we'll be in our mind later.. when we grew up.. :) Love you Vian.. Love u Joe.. <3

My last meal at home.. 

Spaghetti vs Pizza~ Yum !!

That's all for my Snaky Year.. Till we meet again on March.. Adios Amigos !! :))

an on going mission - part 2

mission failed i tell you.. FAILED !! its not my plan at all.. but still.. she's shock for the last minute plan.. but im not satisfied with it.. its not SURPRISE enough you know.. TAK GEMPAK ARR !! pape pown.. manage to celebrate her birthday together.. although didn't manage to snap even 1 picture.. but the memories will always in my mind.. thanks girl.. thanks for the friendship.. #Happy 22 years :)

all these while... i really LOVE surprise...

but for this time being... i just HATE it....

hate the feeling of knowing that you should be with her but you're still sitting there with your crazy hurtful plan.... #be strong for the sake of your best friend.. hope she's strong too :')

an on going mission - part 1

it's truly cruel i know that.. but i really wish to make it special.. i cant hold myself back actually but im trying to.. because i believe that the BEST is yet to some.. she didn't expect that.. its ok i know that feelings.. but i hope it will turn out fine according to the plan..

#im sorry but i love you... :') p/s :: im actually shading my tears while writing this.. im truly sorry for purposely hurting you... i have reasons for that... hope you'll be patient babe T.T

tempting

Wake up in the morning feeling healthy.. and as usual having a simple breakfast.. while thinking of a heavy lunch.. And I saw my senior posted some dim sum as his breakfast !!!! Waaaaaaaaaaa !!! Suddenly feel a rush of hunger in me.... It looks tempting I tell you.. As tough calling me to have a bite of it.. Mummy............ All sorts of Chinese food suddenly flows into my mind....

Of course.. This would be the first thing that strikes in my head !! - DimSum !! Once you had this.. you will feel a fresh starts awaits you for the day.. Taste it while its hot plus a warm sip of Chinese tea is definitely a great combination on a fresh morning.. Gosh I wish I could have this now !!

Since a wealthy breakfast is your choice to start the day.. So you surely want your lunch to be a little light.. In that case.. I'll prefer Kolo Mee.. It won't blow up your tummy.. Just the right amount to keep you working without listening to the music in your tummy..

As for dinner...... I present to you........ Tadaaaaaaaa~ Bak Kut Teh !! Came back from work feeling tired and wish to boast up your energy to continue with your house hold chores? This is the solution.. Fattening? Small problem.. Add in more vegetables into it and it will me more healthy.. Plus.. its a perfect dish for all ages.. Your parents and the in-laws can have it.. Your children will be enjoying it.. And of course you'll be satisfied !! 

Damn !! I want these NOW !!!! #Sob3~

sincerity

Once you are sincere in forgiving someone.. things will eventually end up differently.. Trust me.. I've just realized...

Thanks God for showing me the truth behind ones sincerity... :)

p/s :: Always be sincere in EVERYTHING 

professionalism

I'm being professional enough by helping your group of "golden child" with their staging once.. And I'm still continue it with your following class.. thinking that we are actually did the same course anyway.. so I didn't mind much in helping them, which I treat like my own siblings.. Plus.. me and my bunch of friends are still learning during that time.. I tried to work under you.. to test on my professionalism.. And it turns out that.. mission accomplish.. I'm professional enough.. (as a teacher)

And you.. on the other hand.. full of hypocrite.. I don't mind that you are acting nice in front of me or what so ever.. But.. plssss.... Let by gones be by gones.. PLEASE...... About what my group of course mates had done to you.. it's just a very itsy bitsy minor mistake.. minor problem.. So.. plss don't keep thinking it as though we owe you something BIG which makes you rejected our class.. Come on man... You are OLD enough to think.. Forget about my other course mates.. I'm just talking about you and me.. If I can professionally corporate with you to make BOTH the staging went smooth and fine.. Why won't you be PROFESSIONAL enough to forget every past that happened and start a new beginning???? No one lives in the past FOREVER dude !! --'

I got a call.. Someone told me that you are going to meet us.. I was like "Owh.. I didn't receive anything from him" "In that case.. I don't think you're involve" That someone told me.. Ok fine.. Better still.. I hate being disturbed during the early semester.. Then........ Suddenly......... Out of the blue....... I was asked to attend a meeting for THE THING that I'm not involved... Fine... I went there.. For my friends sake.. And what??? You want us (meaning..include ME) to conduct some practice for them to refresh back what they had done??? I don't mind about helping them.. Seriously... But the thing is.. If you want my help.. Please come to me.. I didn't want you to respect me.. NO !! It's just a matter of MANNERS... And since you just called both of them for help.. Then just let THEM lead.. I'm out of this.. I had ENOUGH of PROFESSIONAL thingy with you mister !!

p/s :: you'll never have my respect.. pls take note

that girl

She's cute.. She's sweet.. She's friendly.. She's nice.. That's what I know about her.. She comes to me when things goes wrong.. She tell me stuffs when she feels like telling.. She keep silent whenever she wants.. She is just her..

To me.. She is innocent.. She thinks too much.. She though that everyone would acted the way she wants.. She's always unpredictable..

She seems quiet lately.. She posted emo stuffs frequently.. She seldom talk.. Her smiles fades.. She's secretive this time.. And as usual.. I won't be approching her.. Cz I knew that.. She'll tell if she wants to..

But thinking back the moments makes me feel that she's a bit weird.. She starts the fights.. She ends up like nothing matters her.. She caused chaos among us.. She turns out to be cool after that.. I just can't figure out what's her motive and what's actually in her mind...

Hey friend.. If you ever need someone I'll definitely be there for you... But pls... don't ever go out and tell  them that you have no idea what you've done then..... Its kinda embarrassing...

But still.. I'm happy to be your friend.. Know why? Because I didn't care much.. I just hope you to be happy and be the girl that I've known before... Love you friend :)

attach

Attach means to bind by emotional ties, as of affection of loyalty.. And speaking of emotional ties and loyalty people normally will relate it with, of course, their own family. Other than that, it's also the friendship that we tend to reacted emotionally.

Ok.. I'm super formal in my above paragraph.. Just hope that you guys manage to get my point.. What im actually trying to say is.. Most of us usually tend to attach with our family and friends.. At this point, let us put the family thingy out for a moment and focus it on the friends.

Specifically, me myself is formally the kind of friend who believe in things like loyalty and trustworthy in friendship.. So I will treat them the way I want them to treat me... But.. as life goes on, I've learnt more.. Im still treating them that way of course.. but speaking of 'the attachment' between my friendship.. I would prefer to lessen it a little bit... just little... Reason? Well.. I'm not sure with anyone out there but for me.. I might have to start agree-ing with my mom that "there's no BEST friend FOREVER in this world" You can have friends, for sure, but not BEST.. because? As usual.. 'the best is yet to come' #I don't think im straight to the reason

Ok, the reason is that......... Fine.. a situation.. when im in my primary.. i have my so called best friend.. but when i move on to my secondary.. my best friend is not the one it used to be during my primary.... but it doesnt mean that we had lost contact with each other.. still remain as friends for sure but didn't hanging out quiet often.. but it doesnt matters.. who care much when we were just some immature kids in school.. I start thinking that maybe that's not my BEST friend cause yeah.. people won't change BEST friends right.. because it's FOREVER.. Therefore im still in my searching-for-a-best-friend mood.. #Still.. disagree my mom's opinion..

And as time goes by.. we meet more strangers.. some are meant just to be passengers and some are meant to be known closer.. Then it starts.. we tend to get more attach to each other.. #Teenage life..as usual. When we move on to our tertiary lives.. it happens again.. We found a better one in the new place.. that's our best friend then.. And we start wondering........ what will happen next? You see.. when you get too ATTACH.. you start wondering.. and that wondering makes you suffering.. You will be thinking stuffs like.. " 'will they get offence if....' 'will they felt uneasy if....' " The 'IF' thing really bothers me a lot !! Like seriously !! The problem is just 'the attachment'.. and the solution is 'don't think too much'

Still can't see the connection?? Okay.. you see.. once you stop thinking TOO much a.k.a nonsense.. you tend to over looked things.. and that's when you loosen the ties of attachment.. And since you don't attach much.. means you wouldnt mind whether that friend of yours is doing anything without your notice.. and to be more precise.. you wont get offended easily.. Conclusion.. your life is stress-free !! And its a good thing !!!!!!! FOR SURE :D

Thus.. I really would like to thank my mom for that long-ago-advise.. 'You didn't actually explain much mom so please don't be too proud k..hehe #joking.. But thanks for letting me find out myself.. It makes me trust you even more.. Love you mom..' And I would be proud to tell everyone that.. I'm STRESS-FREE !!!! :)

And I believe that in any new places.. we will definitely found the BEST for us.. cause its the faith that bought us together.. But hey.. Trust me.. it won't be FOREVER.... *wink

p/s :: Everyone needs a friend.. Everyone should appreciate a friendship..
My advice.. Watch out of the attachment.. And life a happy lifestyle.. :)

"A true friend listens to you when you need it most.. not just when it's important."

# Hmm... I doubt that i ever have one.........
## Late night supper.. Adios~

2013

Hi there 2013.. Hope u'll be nice to me and better be more than usual cause i've started missing my family now.. Damn !! Not only my family.. My queen-sized bed.. My hot shower bath.. My dad's jokes.. My mom's breakfast.. My sis's night talk.. My bro's crazy look.. Damn !! Maybe its because of the too much time spent.. Who cares why !! The fact is that i missed them !! 

Wake up in the middle of the night realized that my sis is not beside me makes me feel that im in the other world.. It sounds childish and yes, im the eldest but yet.. I still have the right to behave like a child don't you think? I'm my mummy's baby girl what......... ;p

Snuggling on my single sized bed wondering what are they doing back there... Oh gosh.. it's killing me !! Im too attach !! Too depend on them !! But that's what we call family right? 

My quote of the year?? Simple.. Your future starts TODAY !! NOT TOMORROW !! Ngeeee~ And i'll make sure that im gonna get things done this semester cause i bet it will surely be a tough semester to go through !! But seriously.. I need someone to remind me to be FOCUS every single day.. Or else i guess i'll be hanging around some where doing something that im not suppose to be doing.. Example.. FB-ing 24/7 !! Gossip-ing nonsense !! Movie-ing the whole day !! Lepak-ing without noticing that time flies !! Out-ing although it's unnecessary !! But hey hey hey.... Blogging would be on my 'to do' list okay.. it's exceptional this year !! Heeee...

Still still still......... didn't manage to achieve my every semester's aim.... dean list... I'm too far from it.. and my mom still never stop hope.. and i'm also haven't stop dreaming about it.. Well.. they said that dreams are yet to come true.. and i do hope it's really true.. Struggle for it babeh !! 

Oh well.. I do realize that my entry is quiet boring.. yeah.. nothing interesting to talk about.. U see a single girl with a single life.. what do u actually except it to be right.. Those unnecessary stories can just get the heck out of my way.. And maybe because of my simple life.. i find it hard to talk to people nowadays.. its oke.. i'll suit it myself.. u take the lead and i'll follow the flow.. it would be more easier that way..

Its getting late and i'll better get off before i start not feeling sleepy.. 

The best?? I'll be waiting.............. :)