an on going mission - part 2

mission failed i tell you.. FAILED !! its not my plan at all.. but still.. she's shock for the last minute plan.. but im not satisfied with it.. its not SURPRISE enough you know.. TAK GEMPAK ARR !! pape pown.. manage to celebrate her birthday together.. although didn't manage to snap even 1 picture.. but the memories will always in my mind.. thanks girl.. thanks for the friendship.. #Happy 22 years :)

all these while... i really LOVE surprise...

but for this time being... i just HATE it....

hate the feeling of knowing that you should be with her but you're still sitting there with your crazy hurtful plan.... #be strong for the sake of your best friend.. hope she's strong too :')

an on going mission - part 1

it's truly cruel i know that.. but i really wish to make it special.. i cant hold myself back actually but im trying to.. because i believe that the BEST is yet to some.. she didn't expect that.. its ok i know that feelings.. but i hope it will turn out fine according to the plan..

#im sorry but i love you... :') p/s :: im actually shading my tears while writing this.. im truly sorry for purposely hurting you... i have reasons for that... hope you'll be patient babe T.T

tempting

Wake up in the morning feeling healthy.. and as usual having a simple breakfast.. while thinking of a heavy lunch.. And I saw my senior posted some dim sum as his breakfast !!!! Waaaaaaaaaaa !!! Suddenly feel a rush of hunger in me.... It looks tempting I tell you.. As tough calling me to have a bite of it.. Mummy............ All sorts of Chinese food suddenly flows into my mind....

Of course.. This would be the first thing that strikes in my head !! - DimSum !! Once you had this.. you will feel a fresh starts awaits you for the day.. Taste it while its hot plus a warm sip of Chinese tea is definitely a great combination on a fresh morning.. Gosh I wish I could have this now !!

Since a wealthy breakfast is your choice to start the day.. So you surely want your lunch to be a little light.. In that case.. I'll prefer Kolo Mee.. It won't blow up your tummy.. Just the right amount to keep you working without listening to the music in your tummy..

As for dinner...... I present to you........ Tadaaaaaaaa~ Bak Kut Teh !! Came back from work feeling tired and wish to boast up your energy to continue with your house hold chores? This is the solution.. Fattening? Small problem.. Add in more vegetables into it and it will me more healthy.. Plus.. its a perfect dish for all ages.. Your parents and the in-laws can have it.. Your children will be enjoying it.. And of course you'll be satisfied !! 

Damn !! I want these NOW !!!! #Sob3~

sincerity

Once you are sincere in forgiving someone.. things will eventually end up differently.. Trust me.. I've just realized...

Thanks God for showing me the truth behind ones sincerity... :)

p/s :: Always be sincere in EVERYTHING 

professionalism

I'm being professional enough by helping your group of "golden child" with their staging once.. And I'm still continue it with your following class.. thinking that we are actually did the same course anyway.. so I didn't mind much in helping them, which I treat like my own siblings.. Plus.. me and my bunch of friends are still learning during that time.. I tried to work under you.. to test on my professionalism.. And it turns out that.. mission accomplish.. I'm professional enough.. (as a teacher)

And you.. on the other hand.. full of hypocrite.. I don't mind that you are acting nice in front of me or what so ever.. But.. plssss.... Let by gones be by gones.. PLEASE...... About what my group of course mates had done to you.. it's just a very itsy bitsy minor mistake.. minor problem.. So.. plss don't keep thinking it as though we owe you something BIG which makes you rejected our class.. Come on man... You are OLD enough to think.. Forget about my other course mates.. I'm just talking about you and me.. If I can professionally corporate with you to make BOTH the staging went smooth and fine.. Why won't you be PROFESSIONAL enough to forget every past that happened and start a new beginning???? No one lives in the past FOREVER dude !! --'

I got a call.. Someone told me that you are going to meet us.. I was like "Owh.. I didn't receive anything from him" "In that case.. I don't think you're involve" That someone told me.. Ok fine.. Better still.. I hate being disturbed during the early semester.. Then........ Suddenly......... Out of the blue....... I was asked to attend a meeting for THE THING that I'm not involved... Fine... I went there.. For my friends sake.. And what??? You want us (meaning..include ME) to conduct some practice for them to refresh back what they had done??? I don't mind about helping them.. Seriously... But the thing is.. If you want my help.. Please come to me.. I didn't want you to respect me.. NO !! It's just a matter of MANNERS... And since you just called both of them for help.. Then just let THEM lead.. I'm out of this.. I had ENOUGH of PROFESSIONAL thingy with you mister !!

p/s :: you'll never have my respect.. pls take note

that girl

She's cute.. She's sweet.. She's friendly.. She's nice.. That's what I know about her.. She comes to me when things goes wrong.. She tell me stuffs when she feels like telling.. She keep silent whenever she wants.. She is just her..

To me.. She is innocent.. She thinks too much.. She though that everyone would acted the way she wants.. She's always unpredictable..

She seems quiet lately.. She posted emo stuffs frequently.. She seldom talk.. Her smiles fades.. She's secretive this time.. And as usual.. I won't be approching her.. Cz I knew that.. She'll tell if she wants to..

But thinking back the moments makes me feel that she's a bit weird.. She starts the fights.. She ends up like nothing matters her.. She caused chaos among us.. She turns out to be cool after that.. I just can't figure out what's her motive and what's actually in her mind...

Hey friend.. If you ever need someone I'll definitely be there for you... But pls... don't ever go out and tell  them that you have no idea what you've done then..... Its kinda embarrassing...

But still.. I'm happy to be your friend.. Know why? Because I didn't care much.. I just hope you to be happy and be the girl that I've known before... Love you friend :)

attach

Attach means to bind by emotional ties, as of affection of loyalty.. And speaking of emotional ties and loyalty people normally will relate it with, of course, their own family. Other than that, it's also the friendship that we tend to reacted emotionally.

Ok.. I'm super formal in my above paragraph.. Just hope that you guys manage to get my point.. What im actually trying to say is.. Most of us usually tend to attach with our family and friends.. At this point, let us put the family thingy out for a moment and focus it on the friends.

Specifically, me myself is formally the kind of friend who believe in things like loyalty and trustworthy in friendship.. So I will treat them the way I want them to treat me... But.. as life goes on, I've learnt more.. Im still treating them that way of course.. but speaking of 'the attachment' between my friendship.. I would prefer to lessen it a little bit... just little... Reason? Well.. I'm not sure with anyone out there but for me.. I might have to start agree-ing with my mom that "there's no BEST friend FOREVER in this world" You can have friends, for sure, but not BEST.. because? As usual.. 'the best is yet to come' #I don't think im straight to the reason

Ok, the reason is that......... Fine.. a situation.. when im in my primary.. i have my so called best friend.. but when i move on to my secondary.. my best friend is not the one it used to be during my primary.... but it doesnt mean that we had lost contact with each other.. still remain as friends for sure but didn't hanging out quiet often.. but it doesnt matters.. who care much when we were just some immature kids in school.. I start thinking that maybe that's not my BEST friend cause yeah.. people won't change BEST friends right.. because it's FOREVER.. Therefore im still in my searching-for-a-best-friend mood.. #Still.. disagree my mom's opinion..

And as time goes by.. we meet more strangers.. some are meant just to be passengers and some are meant to be known closer.. Then it starts.. we tend to get more attach to each other.. #Teenage life..as usual. When we move on to our tertiary lives.. it happens again.. We found a better one in the new place.. that's our best friend then.. And we start wondering........ what will happen next? You see.. when you get too ATTACH.. you start wondering.. and that wondering makes you suffering.. You will be thinking stuffs like.. " 'will they get offence if....' 'will they felt uneasy if....' " The 'IF' thing really bothers me a lot !! Like seriously !! The problem is just 'the attachment'.. and the solution is 'don't think too much'

Still can't see the connection?? Okay.. you see.. once you stop thinking TOO much a.k.a nonsense.. you tend to over looked things.. and that's when you loosen the ties of attachment.. And since you don't attach much.. means you wouldnt mind whether that friend of yours is doing anything without your notice.. and to be more precise.. you wont get offended easily.. Conclusion.. your life is stress-free !! And its a good thing !!!!!!! FOR SURE :D

Thus.. I really would like to thank my mom for that long-ago-advise.. 'You didn't actually explain much mom so please don't be too proud k..hehe #joking.. But thanks for letting me find out myself.. It makes me trust you even more.. Love you mom..' And I would be proud to tell everyone that.. I'm STRESS-FREE !!!! :)

And I believe that in any new places.. we will definitely found the BEST for us.. cause its the faith that bought us together.. But hey.. Trust me.. it won't be FOREVER.... *wink

p/s :: Everyone needs a friend.. Everyone should appreciate a friendship..
My advice.. Watch out of the attachment.. And life a happy lifestyle.. :)

"A true friend listens to you when you need it most.. not just when it's important."

# Hmm... I doubt that i ever have one.........
## Late night supper.. Adios~

2013

Hi there 2013.. Hope u'll be nice to me and better be more than usual cause i've started missing my family now.. Damn !! Not only my family.. My queen-sized bed.. My hot shower bath.. My dad's jokes.. My mom's breakfast.. My sis's night talk.. My bro's crazy look.. Damn !! Maybe its because of the too much time spent.. Who cares why !! The fact is that i missed them !! 

Wake up in the middle of the night realized that my sis is not beside me makes me feel that im in the other world.. It sounds childish and yes, im the eldest but yet.. I still have the right to behave like a child don't you think? I'm my mummy's baby girl what......... ;p

Snuggling on my single sized bed wondering what are they doing back there... Oh gosh.. it's killing me !! Im too attach !! Too depend on them !! But that's what we call family right? 

My quote of the year?? Simple.. Your future starts TODAY !! NOT TOMORROW !! Ngeeee~ And i'll make sure that im gonna get things done this semester cause i bet it will surely be a tough semester to go through !! But seriously.. I need someone to remind me to be FOCUS every single day.. Or else i guess i'll be hanging around some where doing something that im not suppose to be doing.. Example.. FB-ing 24/7 !! Gossip-ing nonsense !! Movie-ing the whole day !! Lepak-ing without noticing that time flies !! Out-ing although it's unnecessary !! But hey hey hey.... Blogging would be on my 'to do' list okay.. it's exceptional this year !! Heeee...

Still still still......... didn't manage to achieve my every semester's aim.... dean list... I'm too far from it.. and my mom still never stop hope.. and i'm also haven't stop dreaming about it.. Well.. they said that dreams are yet to come true.. and i do hope it's really true.. Struggle for it babeh !! 

Oh well.. I do realize that my entry is quiet boring.. yeah.. nothing interesting to talk about.. U see a single girl with a single life.. what do u actually except it to be right.. Those unnecessary stories can just get the heck out of my way.. And maybe because of my simple life.. i find it hard to talk to people nowadays.. its oke.. i'll suit it myself.. u take the lead and i'll follow the flow.. it would be more easier that way..

Its getting late and i'll better get off before i start not feeling sleepy.. 

The best?? I'll be waiting.............. :)