professionalism

I'm being professional enough by helping your group of "golden child" with their staging once.. And I'm still continue it with your following class.. thinking that we are actually did the same course anyway.. so I didn't mind much in helping them, which I treat like my own siblings.. Plus.. me and my bunch of friends are still learning during that time.. I tried to work under you.. to test on my professionalism.. And it turns out that.. mission accomplish.. I'm professional enough.. (as a teacher)

And you.. on the other hand.. full of hypocrite.. I don't mind that you are acting nice in front of me or what so ever.. But.. plssss.... Let by gones be by gones.. PLEASE...... About what my group of course mates had done to you.. it's just a very itsy bitsy minor mistake.. minor problem.. So.. plss don't keep thinking it as though we owe you something BIG which makes you rejected our class.. Come on man... You are OLD enough to think.. Forget about my other course mates.. I'm just talking about you and me.. If I can professionally corporate with you to make BOTH the staging went smooth and fine.. Why won't you be PROFESSIONAL enough to forget every past that happened and start a new beginning???? No one lives in the past FOREVER dude !! --'

I got a call.. Someone told me that you are going to meet us.. I was like "Owh.. I didn't receive anything from him" "In that case.. I don't think you're involve" That someone told me.. Ok fine.. Better still.. I hate being disturbed during the early semester.. Then........ Suddenly......... Out of the blue....... I was asked to attend a meeting for THE THING that I'm not involved... Fine... I went there.. For my friends sake.. And what??? You want us (meaning..include ME) to conduct some practice for them to refresh back what they had done??? I don't mind about helping them.. Seriously... But the thing is.. If you want my help.. Please come to me.. I didn't want you to respect me.. NO !! It's just a matter of MANNERS... And since you just called both of them for help.. Then just let THEM lead.. I'm out of this.. I had ENOUGH of PROFESSIONAL thingy with you mister !!

p/s :: you'll never have my respect.. pls take note

that girl

She's cute.. She's sweet.. She's friendly.. She's nice.. That's what I know about her.. She comes to me when things goes wrong.. She tell me stuffs when she feels like telling.. She keep silent whenever she wants.. She is just her..

To me.. She is innocent.. She thinks too much.. She though that everyone would acted the way she wants.. She's always unpredictable..

She seems quiet lately.. She posted emo stuffs frequently.. She seldom talk.. Her smiles fades.. She's secretive this time.. And as usual.. I won't be approching her.. Cz I knew that.. She'll tell if she wants to..

But thinking back the moments makes me feel that she's a bit weird.. She starts the fights.. She ends up like nothing matters her.. She caused chaos among us.. She turns out to be cool after that.. I just can't figure out what's her motive and what's actually in her mind...

Hey friend.. If you ever need someone I'll definitely be there for you... But pls... don't ever go out and tell  them that you have no idea what you've done then..... Its kinda embarrassing...

But still.. I'm happy to be your friend.. Know why? Because I didn't care much.. I just hope you to be happy and be the girl that I've known before... Love you friend :)

attach

Attach means to bind by emotional ties, as of affection of loyalty.. And speaking of emotional ties and loyalty people normally will relate it with, of course, their own family. Other than that, it's also the friendship that we tend to reacted emotionally.

Ok.. I'm super formal in my above paragraph.. Just hope that you guys manage to get my point.. What im actually trying to say is.. Most of us usually tend to attach with our family and friends.. At this point, let us put the family thingy out for a moment and focus it on the friends.

Specifically, me myself is formally the kind of friend who believe in things like loyalty and trustworthy in friendship.. So I will treat them the way I want them to treat me... But.. as life goes on, I've learnt more.. Im still treating them that way of course.. but speaking of 'the attachment' between my friendship.. I would prefer to lessen it a little bit... just little... Reason? Well.. I'm not sure with anyone out there but for me.. I might have to start agree-ing with my mom that "there's no BEST friend FOREVER in this world" You can have friends, for sure, but not BEST.. because? As usual.. 'the best is yet to come' #I don't think im straight to the reason

Ok, the reason is that......... Fine.. a situation.. when im in my primary.. i have my so called best friend.. but when i move on to my secondary.. my best friend is not the one it used to be during my primary.... but it doesnt mean that we had lost contact with each other.. still remain as friends for sure but didn't hanging out quiet often.. but it doesnt matters.. who care much when we were just some immature kids in school.. I start thinking that maybe that's not my BEST friend cause yeah.. people won't change BEST friends right.. because it's FOREVER.. Therefore im still in my searching-for-a-best-friend mood.. #Still.. disagree my mom's opinion..

And as time goes by.. we meet more strangers.. some are meant just to be passengers and some are meant to be known closer.. Then it starts.. we tend to get more attach to each other.. #Teenage life..as usual. When we move on to our tertiary lives.. it happens again.. We found a better one in the new place.. that's our best friend then.. And we start wondering........ what will happen next? You see.. when you get too ATTACH.. you start wondering.. and that wondering makes you suffering.. You will be thinking stuffs like.. " 'will they get offence if....' 'will they felt uneasy if....' " The 'IF' thing really bothers me a lot !! Like seriously !! The problem is just 'the attachment'.. and the solution is 'don't think too much'

Still can't see the connection?? Okay.. you see.. once you stop thinking TOO much a.k.a nonsense.. you tend to over looked things.. and that's when you loosen the ties of attachment.. And since you don't attach much.. means you wouldnt mind whether that friend of yours is doing anything without your notice.. and to be more precise.. you wont get offended easily.. Conclusion.. your life is stress-free !! And its a good thing !!!!!!! FOR SURE :D

Thus.. I really would like to thank my mom for that long-ago-advise.. 'You didn't actually explain much mom so please don't be too proud k..hehe #joking.. But thanks for letting me find out myself.. It makes me trust you even more.. Love you mom..' And I would be proud to tell everyone that.. I'm STRESS-FREE !!!! :)

And I believe that in any new places.. we will definitely found the BEST for us.. cause its the faith that bought us together.. But hey.. Trust me.. it won't be FOREVER.... *wink

p/s :: Everyone needs a friend.. Everyone should appreciate a friendship..
My advice.. Watch out of the attachment.. And life a happy lifestyle.. :)

"A true friend listens to you when you need it most.. not just when it's important."

# Hmm... I doubt that i ever have one.........
## Late night supper.. Adios~

2013

Hi there 2013.. Hope u'll be nice to me and better be more than usual cause i've started missing my family now.. Damn !! Not only my family.. My queen-sized bed.. My hot shower bath.. My dad's jokes.. My mom's breakfast.. My sis's night talk.. My bro's crazy look.. Damn !! Maybe its because of the too much time spent.. Who cares why !! The fact is that i missed them !! 

Wake up in the middle of the night realized that my sis is not beside me makes me feel that im in the other world.. It sounds childish and yes, im the eldest but yet.. I still have the right to behave like a child don't you think? I'm my mummy's baby girl what......... ;p

Snuggling on my single sized bed wondering what are they doing back there... Oh gosh.. it's killing me !! Im too attach !! Too depend on them !! But that's what we call family right? 

My quote of the year?? Simple.. Your future starts TODAY !! NOT TOMORROW !! Ngeeee~ And i'll make sure that im gonna get things done this semester cause i bet it will surely be a tough semester to go through !! But seriously.. I need someone to remind me to be FOCUS every single day.. Or else i guess i'll be hanging around some where doing something that im not suppose to be doing.. Example.. FB-ing 24/7 !! Gossip-ing nonsense !! Movie-ing the whole day !! Lepak-ing without noticing that time flies !! Out-ing although it's unnecessary !! But hey hey hey.... Blogging would be on my 'to do' list okay.. it's exceptional this year !! Heeee...

Still still still......... didn't manage to achieve my every semester's aim.... dean list... I'm too far from it.. and my mom still never stop hope.. and i'm also haven't stop dreaming about it.. Well.. they said that dreams are yet to come true.. and i do hope it's really true.. Struggle for it babeh !! 

Oh well.. I do realize that my entry is quiet boring.. yeah.. nothing interesting to talk about.. U see a single girl with a single life.. what do u actually except it to be right.. Those unnecessary stories can just get the heck out of my way.. And maybe because of my simple life.. i find it hard to talk to people nowadays.. its oke.. i'll suit it myself.. u take the lead and i'll follow the flow.. it would be more easier that way..

Its getting late and i'll better get off before i start not feeling sleepy.. 

The best?? I'll be waiting.............. :)

At least..

Still headache about my mono-drama lines... But AT LEAST.. I've done on one thing !!

Hey.. guess what.. I just done reading THAT novel !! And the ending was........ aaaaah.. heart melting.. I've gone through lots of love stories but this one is simply different.. All thanks to Alexander Potter.. the writter for Don't You Forget Me.. Its a story for all the girls who wishes that she never met him.. And yes !! Its suitable to read it when you are dealing with a broken hear.. To all heart breaker out there.. I'll definitely recommended THIS novel to you girls !! It really will change your perception about the guy that you once madly in love with and all you would wish is for a second chance to make things right or even erase and delete and terminate and all the above on those silly crazy memories of yours but on the other hand you thinking that it's not worth it to think about him as your life must still go on with or without him and finally come to an amaze that you can actually life happily WITHOUT him !! It motivates A LOT !! And it REALLY helps !!

Hey Hey Hey.. Don't get me wrong.. I'm not dealing with this situation right now ok.. I was.. But not now.. I actually bought this novel right after I broke up with him.. cz the title and synopsis truly caught my attention.. But I didn't mange to read it during that time.. well.. you know.. busy lying around in bed flashing back stuff that we gone through together.. then.. Well.. when thinking about that.. I would just called himself 'lucky" as I didn't have the mood to noveling during that time.. Or else.. I'll surely be posting lots and lost of crazy motivated stuff which will surely made him feel wrong for leaving me JUST like that.. Hahahahha.. Ok.. I'm completely insane now.. Blueeekkk.. Who cares..

An advice for me to all the girls out there.. Stop trying to change yourself for the one YOU LOVE.. Because there will be SOMEONE out there who will just LOVE YOU for who you are.. Be you and just only YOU !! My point? Hehehe.. Be true to yourself.. :)

A quotes of myself --> Life won't let you lie in bed feeling sorry for yourself.. Life goes on and on.. And bare in mind that we are making new memories everyday.. So enjoy life to the fullest !! >.<

Responsibilities.... F !!

Hi all.. Here I am.. Again.. Staying up all alone while the rest are snuggling in their beds having their sweetest dream in the universe.. Still keeping my fingers dancing gracefully on the keyboard expressing something just to ease out the pity heart of mine.. 

Yes !! im gonna talk about responsibilities.. For those who don't know me.. im actually dedicated towards all my work since secondary school (im such a loser in my primary, that explains everything i guess) till now.. Yea.. But my inner is actually rebel.. sometimes.. But what to do.. When people around you expect you to come out with some sort of brilliant ideas that will 'wooooaaaaaaaaa' the whole school.. You just HAVE TO do it.. And on the other hand, some might just expect you to screwed everything up into a mess so that the whole wide world will be 'boo-ing' at you and you might probably thinking of running around the school with your faced covered with paper bags and hope that no one recognized you but actually does.. Thinking of that.. You surely don't want to make things upside down.. In that case.. You just HAVE TO do it right !! Headache huh.. Yea.. I was expecting that !! And now.. im facing a huge responsible during my honeymoon holiday and its the WORSE thing that ever happened to me !! It just simply RUIN my holidays !! 

Mono-drama.. Owh yes.. Im all in love with my world of theater of course.. But hey !! Memorizing the script during the holiday is not gonna work on ME !! Okay?? Read my lips.. ITS NOT GONNA WORK !! Im all alone.. No proper practice.. No proper guidance.. No proper encouragement.. Just you all alone struggling to remember every lines on the paper.. And at the end of the day you are going to perform it on stage ALONE !! Why? YES !! Its called MONO-DRAMA right !! So its MONO !! SINGLE !! ALONE !! Plus its not a simple on stage and off stage performance.. Its a COMPETITION !! Now it scares you does it? Well tell you what.. It scares me MORE !! 

Then why am i agree to join it at the first place? Hahahaha... That's the point.. It's not actually my responsibility... It's her job.. She said she want it.. And we (includes me) agrees to join it to support her.. But in the end she was telling that she has this family trip and want me to replace her.. Am i blaming her?? Owh.. Yes ?? No ?? Maybe.. Well i don't know !! Its not right pointing your fingers on others.. Plus it's not the point now.. The focus here is i MUST (no other option) take this responsibility..

When is it? Ah'ha !! That's a good question.. So guess what.. It's this coming 28th im talking about and its 4 days from now !! And well.. im going off on the 25th and that makes me even worry because....... i never even think about the costumes.. the lighting.. the props.. and of course the MAKE UP !! Arrrrrgggggghhhhhh !! Ok lets put it this way.. I've got the audio (but i haven't practice with it.... yet) E'ein is working on the lighting (so i'll cut it off from my list) I'm gonna find my costume by.... well.. lets see... just TOMORROW... And the makeup? (owh yea.. ecah will be going too.. so.. relieve? hmm.. hope so) GOSH !! Props??!!! Fine.... I don't think i'll need it.. Just the help from the costumes and the lights will do.. I hate thinking everything on my own when i actually.... to be telling you that.... i almost.... well to be honest..... I HAVEN"T ACTUALLY REMEMBER MY LINES............... Yes..... I'm such a failure....... Hi-5 to myself  !! :(

And still.. Here i am.. sitting down here blaming this and blaming that and didn't even have the urge to wake up and start memorizing my script....... WAIT !! I forget one thing...... My packing !! GOSH !! I'm slow in packing things up and now im gonna memorize PLUS packing my stuff by only TO-MOR-ROW?? Congratulations Winnie.. Lets see can you beat your high score.. Wait a minute.. I don't have a high score on that.. Cz i haven't have so little time for doing so much things before !! Hell no.. But guess what.. I think im gonna screw up this time.... Owh yes.. Sure.. No doubt you got the point.. It haven't been too late.. But HEY !! I DON"T HAVE THE CONFIDENCE NOW !! Do you get my point??!! F !!

So i think you can just conclude myself that.. Yes.. You're right.. I HATE responsibilities.. ACTUALLY.. -.-'